Insomnia.

Because I never sleep anymore I have been laying in bed thinking. I think I am going to start trying to be proactive:

proactive - (of a policy or person or action) controlling a situation by causing something to happen rather than waiting to respond to it after it happens.

I constantly worry about the consequenses of not doing something and plan ways to deal with it afterwards. I think now I am going to try to just do what I need to and get shit done.

I want to succeed in life, and I fear that I never will. And because my definition of success constantly changes, how will I ever know if I have succeeded.

Actually what is success?
Maybe I will live day by day and see where life takes me.